Good morning everyone! This is Dewy Knickers in the studio today with another very special guest on “Flashing Knickers With Dewy”. Please put your hands together for a member of The Fresh Knickers Club, our sister(s), Many Madds~Dewy’s multiple sister(s).
Thank you Dewy for having me.
1. Your blog is called Maddspace. What is the genesis of your blog title?
Well my nickname all my life has been Mad, ok I’ll say it…my last name was Anger, so…Madelyn Anger, well you can imagine what fun the kids at school had with that…so I became Madanger all through school…so I decided to just go with it and made it my own…Madd. When I started my blog it was going to be my space, all for me, for us to be free thus…Maddspace.
2. What was the decisive factor in starting your blog?
I had just lost a long time job due to new management coming in, was in a bad place mentally…which is never good for any of us, so I needed a focus, my son who knows us well suggested bloging and so here we are..
3. You write poetry, do you a favorite style of poem?
I really can’t say that I do…when I write it just flows out and I put it on paper, sometimes I am not the one doing the writing when its poetry, I should say most times, the muse in me and writer of poetry and stories is one of my alter egos…lana, she writes most of the poetry and anything erotic, a lot of her poems and stories I can’t post with out a little fixing…as she tends to get rather graphic and very sexual. A few of our other writings can tend to be dark when someone wants to voice their opinion or feeling and get them out. I tend to write mostly political rants, stuff about what’s going on in the news or things that make a statement, go to the pages I added on my blog there you will see that these were written by me, mostly..:)
4. At this point in your life, what are your priorities?
Just getting thru each day and staying focused, it is hard for us if I don’t. Too much chaos is a very bad thing in our life and not having a 9-5 could be a problem so we are working on that, bloging has helped and my new projects will give me much more focus and somewhere to put all the energies running around in here..:)
5. Are you artistic and do you do any crafts?
Yes I am, have always been. I shifted away from that for the past few years and until I lost my job didn’t realize how much I had missed it. It’s as if I had pushed a big part of who I am down and now it is rising to the surface again…yes!! I am starting my jewelry making again, I do a lot of beading, not just jewelry but wedding gowns, hats, and objects etc, I do a lot with shells, I love working with them to create a one of a kind piece…I also design and custom decorate tee shirts, jeans jackets, etc. I also used to paint; my specialty was doing wall murals in private homes, business offices, etc
6. Are your crafts something which you plan on selling?
Yes I am working on that as well; my son, who is a tecnocrat is building me a storefront site called…Maddisims.com…that is where I will show, sell and take custom orders.
7. When you had your own business what made you stop?
I moved to FL and went in a different direction, which was needed at the time
8. Do you have any children?
Yes my wonderful son Scott whose Birthday was Oct. 14th, he is now 26. he is a treasure and has always been there for me, even as a child.
We also had another beautiful son…Andrew…however we lost him when he was only 3mos old. He was a beautiful gift to us for a very short while.
9. Are you involved in a relationship at this time?
Yes with my partner of 9yrs, Carol. She is my best friend, my lover, my (finally) life partner. I am the caregiver and head of the household so to speak, but she helps keep me, us, all together
10. What is the best part of your life right now?
The excitement of freedom, freedom to start a new chapter in my life and see where it takes me. The feeling of the creative juices flowing freely again
11. What is the worst part of your life right now?
Hah…that’s easy, change is not something we take well, sooo we have to deal with that feeling of uncertainty that we hate..!!
12. Your sisterhood name in Multiple Madds, why is that?
I have DID/PTS, without going into it too much, I was a foster child at a very, very young age, abused in ways that no one would even want to know about, for years, seemed like forever, so we coped, coped in the only way we knew how to. There are many of us living in this head we call Madd. It’s just the way it is for us, it is what is normal for us, it works for us. Yes we have had therapy, oh my have we had therapy..:) We have tried doing what the “experts” said we should…not gonna happen, makes it worse, what we have built works for us. The easiest way for me to explain is to ask you to go to maddspace and read the page titled… I Am, We are Survivors. That probably will explain it as good as anything I could say here. This is a subject that most of us with this disorder try all our lives to hide. Most people don’t believe that it is real; it is not possible and find it hard if not impossible to understand. My family knows and lives with this “condition” daily, they love all of us just as we are which for them and us..lol…can be very trying, very funny, very sad and sometimes very scary at times. …to say the least..:) So with this kind of support I decided to be more open about us, it is exhausting to always try and keep such a big secret, and I for one am so very tired of secrets, they are not healthy!! At any age!! I had decided that this space, maddspace, would be my safe space, free space to be myself. So I have posted writing that will express who we are, and as I say after I write one of my rants…this is my rant, my opinion, my delusion…so don’t read it if you don’t like it. That’s why I have maddspace…freedom to just be…just be all of who we are.
Thank you so much for coming to the studio today and sharing your soul with us. I know that I speak for all the sisterhood when I say that all of you combine to make a truely beautiful and giving soul and Dewy is very grateful that you have shared all of your sides with us today.
Dewy is still looking for someone to interview next week. Anybody? Miss 1999? Mysti? Ann? Let me know!!!!